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Put your music player on shuffle.. Post the first 40 songs that come up.. You can repeat artists if you want.. If you have any repeats, skip to the next track..


Here's what to do:

SONGS:

1. Stonefree - Baka Naman
2. Alamid - Your Love
3. Gorillaz - 19-2000
4. Hale - Kung Wala Ka
5. Leigh Nash - Need To Be Next To You
6. Phantom Planet - Lonely Day
7. Sandwich - Two Trick Pony
8. Francis M. - Girl Be Mine
9. Bic Runga Feat. DanWilson - Good Morning Baby
10. Caedmon's Call -Love Alone

11. Coldplay - The Scientist

12. Eva Cassidy - Time After Time

13. Jason Mraz - The Remedy

14. Hale - Blue Sky

15. Mojofly - Another Day

16. The Fray - Over My Head(Cable Car)

17. Ashlee Simpson - Pieces Of Me

18. Evan And Jaron - Crazy for This Girl

19. U2 - Elevation

20. Eric Benet - The Last Time

21. Dishwalla - Somewhere In The Middle

22. Cultured Pearls - Not This Time

23. Imago - Otherwise

24. Kyla - Beautiful Days

25. Mojofly - Alright Without You

26. Caedmon's Call - Shifting Sand

27. Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated

28. Rocksteddy - Smile At Me

29. MYMP - Magical Feeling

30. Lifehouse - You And Me

31. Case - Missing You

32. Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

33. Sarah McLachlan - I Will Remember You

34. Imago - Idlip

35. Musiq Soulchild - Don't Change

36. Goo Goo Dolls - Name

37. Lifehouse - Sick Cycle Carousel

38. Filter - Take A Picture

39. Tori Amos - Sleeps With Butterflies

40. Justin Timberlake - Sexyback

QUESTIONS:

1. Which song do you prefer, #1 or #40? #40, coz it wakes me up when i'm sleepy at work.. hehe..

2. Have you ever listened to #12 continuously on repeat? Yup..

3. What album is #26 from? Caedmon's Call's 40 Acres..

4. What do you think about the artist who did #15? I like the original line up more.. But they're still cool..

5. Is #19 one of your favorite songs? Not really..

6. Who does #38 remind you of? Haha.. The Girl Next Door?? :P

7. Does #20 have better lyrics or music? Music..

8. Do any of your friends like #3? Hmm.. Some of them do..

9. Is #33 from a movie soundtrack? Yep.. I forgot the title but I think Natalie Portman was in it..

10. Is #18 overplayed on the radio? I don't think so now..

11. What does #21 remind you of? A huge fight..

12. Which song do you prefer, #5 or #22? #22.. Love this song..

13. What album is #17 from? Ashlee Simpson's Autobiography..

14. When did you first hear #39? Around February this year..

15. When did you first hear #7? A long long time ago.. Hehe..

16. What genre is #8? Rap.. Old School.. :P

17. Do any of your friends like #14? Malamang.. :)

18. What color does #4 remind you of? Black dark sky..

19. Have you ever blasted #11 on your stereo? Hmm.. No.. I like it not too loud..

20. What genre is #37? Alternative..

21. Can you play #13 on any instrument? Hehe.. Mahirap un..

22. What is your favorite lyric from #30? Everything she does is beautiful.. Everything she does is right..

23. What is your favorite lyric from #23? We have an ear for envy.. Never a tongue for praise..

24. Would you recommend #24 to your friends? Uhuh..

25. Is #2 a good song to dance to? Nope.. Haha..

26. Do you ever hear #16 on the radio? Yep yep.. Quite Often..

27. Is #32 more of a “nighttime” or “daytime” song? Definitely night time..

28. Does #36 have any special meaning to you? Yeah..

29. Do any of your friends like #31? Yes..

30. Is #25 a fast or slow song? Fast..

31. Is #35 a happy or sad song? Happy sad.. :)

32. What is one of your favorite lyrics from #9? In the morning after staying up all night.. I want to wake you just to hear you tell me it's alright..

33. Is #34 better to listen to alone or with friends? Alone..

34. When did you first hear #27? Spiderman2 movie..

35. Name 3 other songs by the artist who did #29? A Little Bit, saka ano.. Ahh.. Puro covers eh.. Counted ba un?? :)

36. Do you know all the words to #6? Almost.. :p

37. Does #28 have better lyrics or music? Music..

38. What album is #10 from? Caedmon's Call's Long Line Of Leavers..

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hmmm..

ano nga ba ang sukatan ng talino??

dumadating din ang tao sa panahon na wala talaga syang magawa (madalas atang mangyari sa akin to ngayon) , at naiisipan nyang sumagot ng mga online IQ test..

at iyon nga ang ginawa ko..

medyo mahaba ang test.. 11 pages ito.. halo-halo.. me verbal reasoning, me abstract patterns at syempre mawawala ba naman ang math?!?

di nga ako makapagconcentrate nung nagsasagot ako.. pano ba naman?? dun sa left side nung site e me mga larawan ng mga babae na kita ang dibdib!! hehe.. baka mamaya e me makakita sa akin, sabihin nagsusurf ako ng mga porn sites.. hehe.. mawalan pa ko ng trabaho..

eto naman ang resulta:

uy! 135 daw ang IQ ko.. e ano naman ngayon?!? (oo, si bill gates ung nasa litrato!!)

nagsearch ako sa net kung anong ibig sabihin kapag ang isang tao ay may 135 na IQ..

ang sabi sa http://www.increasebrainpower.com/iq-scale.html ang tao daw na me IQ between 135 to 144 ay very gifted.. naks, gifted child pala ko.. asan na ang promil commercial ko??

at dahil doon ay naengganyo tuloy akong makita ang kabuuan ng analysis nila sa intelligence ko..

I WANT A FULL REPORT!!!

pag click ko sa button ay:

ang hirap maipit sa sitwasyong di mo naman alam kung pano ka napunta dun, in the first place.. pwede ba yun?? haha.. di ba sabi nga nila, lahat naman ng mga nangyayari sa atin ngaun e bunga lang ng mga nangyari sa atin sa nakaraan.. repercussions lang kung baga..

ako kasi, happy go lucky talaga.. just go with the flow.. bahala na.. mali ata diskarte ko.. when i was younger, it was okay.. siguro ngaun hindi na.. hindi na pwede ung balewalain ko muna sa umpisa at intayin na ung problema ang mag-ayos sa sarili nya.. believe it or not, madalas mangyari to sa kin.. when i'm stuck in deep shit, me dadating at aayos nito para sa akin.. not this time.. tumatanda ka na, kat.. dapat once in while, isipin mo din ang magiging outcome ng mga actions mo..

and i hate not knowing what to do.. paano ko nga naman malalaman kung ano ang gagawin ko kung hindi ko talaga alam kung paano ako nasadlak sa gitna ng gulo?? kung pede lang maglaho kahit sandali.. kahit mga 3 years lang.. haha..

o kaya kausapin mo ko kung anong problema mo.. kung ako ba ang problema..

ayokong mangapa sa dilim..


just start right, kat.. just start right..

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yes.. i am giving up.. i am giving up the hope that everything will fall into place.. just like before.. no.. it won't happen.. for now, i can say that.. he's too absorbed in his own world to be able to notice my feelings and expectations.. i knew that, maybe earlier in my subconsciousness, but i have always known it.. and i am also to blame, i know.. i act as if i couldn't care less.. that's what i am showing him.. the toughie me.. i don't want to be like this, really, but i've sunk too deep into this shit that i will just go with the flow.. if this will lead me into being so badly beaten and bruised again then i don't mind.. i have been in that state before, i'll just get up and fight back again.. or maybe i won't..

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"i had mistaken his eyes for stars so i followed him where he went.. the sight of those stars made me dream and the dreams were beautiful but not more beautiful than the light of the stars i thought i saw in his eyes.. i chased the stars down to where they stopped and stayed still.. he saw me finally and he said, ever so gently, sorry, you've mistaken my eyes for stars and they're not.. and i said, oh, i see that now and maybe i should have been sad when he was looking at me.. they were not stars but they were just as bright, if not more so.. i know now that they are not stars, i told him, but i like them.. can i stay here to look at them?? i asked him and he smiled and said, yes, you can stay here and look at them.. so he let me stay and here i am and there i will be until he lets me go.."

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i've always been a big fan of hale.. broken sonnet days pa.. long before the song "the day you said goodnight" became everybody's national anthem.. thanks to the people who love ripping music *heehee >:p* and uploading it in the World Wide Web, i have listened to the whole album and appreciated it before the whole nation was swept with the "hale bug"..

i am always a fan of good music.. and hale delivers such that.. they have intelligent lyrics and great melodies.. though theirs are mostly lonely, somber songs.. i would compare their music with coldplay.. sad melody, deep lyrics.. just the same.. even though champ voice's is utterly monotonous *heehee*, it's endearing..

maybe their only fault was the album sold really well.. especially for a rock band.. i was kinda surprised that the masses embraced their style.. the style were for the A and B crowd.. well, pinoys are suckers for love songs, and it seems that in whatever music genre they appear..

and its kinda sad that nababastos sila if ever they perform with other rock bands.. especially if the crowd is very rowdy.. i would love to enjoy hale alongside other bands i love like imago and sandwich.. at least they're original unlike some band i know.. posers.. ;p

i'll be posting the song "Blue Sky", a single released from their repackaged album and was also included in the first album.. i didn't like that they've released the repackaged album.. they're like squeezing the songs of all damn's worth.. bad..

i know i've heard it all before.. but it's playing everywhere now and i just can't keep this song outta my head.. and it is so suited with what i'm experiencing right now.. for once, a song with a good-feel vibe..

peace and love, everyone..

much has been said
said you never leave
why'd it have to be
harder than it had to be
don't you throw blame
you were part of this
wasn't suppose to end
with us just walking away

so many times we tried
holding on to the pain but in my baby's eyes
i see my shame
asking why you had to leave
wasn't i strong enough to make you see
that the biggest part of this it's not about you or me
but just be wrong if we held on

so maybe tomorrow we'll find
a taste for the old days hard lessons
we've left behind
this mirrors an open door
i can barely stand to see myself
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm crying out for help

ohh lord
ohh lord

much has been said
will i never learn
keeping my fingers crossed
praying for my luck to turn
but i can't complain
i'm living it easy
job's keeping me busy
going crazy

can't describe the way it felt
when you left said your goodbyes
it just seems crazy for me to think
that I'll find love a second time
but we all know how it all wraps up in the end

maybe tomorrow we'll find
a taste for the old days hard lessons
we've left behind
this mirrors an open door
i can barely stand to see myself
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm crying out for help

ohh lord
ohh lord

what am i leaving behind
sweet how we see the big picture when you're life's not on the line i

i know the way but do you see what i see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
money on the table thought that was all I had to do
never came home
never said a word to tell you
no one ever said it was going easy

easy

yeah

start over again
this time
this time
let's do it right

start over again
this time
this time
Lets keep the fires burning.

start over again
start over again
this time
this time
let's do it right sweet child

start over again
start over again
this time
this time
lets keep the fires burning

you say i only hear what i want to:
you say i talk so all the time
i talk so all the time

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in random order.. hehe..


1. ang paglulunch ng 11:30 - 1:30..
o di ba ang sarap??? 2 hours ang lunch break.. hehe.. if you're a fast eater, 30 minutes eating time and 1 hour and 30 minutes na sleeping time.. considerate ang mga tao dito.. lights out talaga during these hours.. ^-^

para naman sa mga di natutulog na tulad ko, ang 1 and a half hours ay sapat na para manood ng movie o kya'y downloaded episode ng naruto at bleach.. sapat na din ito para mahumaling sa mga online games na family feud at maghanap ng pagkakaiba sa mga larawan sa www.findherdifferences.com/lingerie-and-bikini-edition na hard mode.. ehem ehem.. (paunawa: ang laro sa nasabing site ay nakapagdudulot ng konting pagkatulala at pagtulo ng laway sa mga kalalakihan..)


disclaimer:
12:00 - 1:30 talaga ang lunch break.. kaya lang dahil ang mga taga IT ay ayaw ng mahahabang pila, maaga silang umaakyat sa canteen para makaiwas rito.. normal routine na po ito.. hehe.. ;p





2. ang masasarap na cake sa canteen..
masarap talaga ang cake dito promise.. hehe.. this coming from a dessert enthusiast as myself is enough a praise.. hehe.. dinadayo ang mga cakes na gawa ng catering service namin..


for inquiries please call... hmmm.. nakalimutan ko local nila.. next time na lang.. hehe..





3. internet banking..
mamimiss ko ung mga dialog na "uy! me piso ka?? patransfer naman sa account ko o.. 199 na lang pera ko e.. para mawithdraw ko.."

o kaya ung "claire!! di ako makalog-in sa connect.. host unavailable!!"

mamimiss ko ang mga ito dahil kapag hindi na payroll ang account ko required na akong magmaintain ng balance na hindi bababa sa 5K.. biruin mo un.. pero sabi ni jambi 2k na lang daw ang maintaining balance.. pag ganun nga, pwedeng hindi ko ito mamiss.. hehe.. ung pagsigaw na lang kay claire ang mamimiss ko.. di bale.. alam ko naman local nya e.. hehe.. :)




4. merienda time
oo na.. puro pagkain ang mamimiss ko.. hehe.. mamimiss ko ang merienda time tuwing alas 4.. hehe.. mahilig kasing kumain ang mga teammates ko.. naendoctrinate tuloy ako hehe.. sana sa lilipatan ko me ganito din.. *hay* mamimiss ko ang kamote fries at barbecue ni manang sa backdoor, ang dirty ice cream na pinalaman sa monay sa me pacific star, ang mini stop at 7-11, ang mga fastfood stores sa palibot namin, at ang mani, fishball, squidball, kikiam at sweetcorn sa me hsbc.. and last but not the least ang mga junk foods at pastries sa value shop (for more info, see no.5).





5. ang value shop..
ano ba ang value shop?? ang value shop ay parang maliit na grocery na matatagpuan sa basement 2 ng building namin.. dito mo mabibili ang mga kailangan mo para makasurvive ka sa iyong araw-araw na gawain sa opisina tulad ng tissue, alcohol, ensaymada, chicken nuggets, 1.5 liters na coke, marshmallows, pillows, mr. chips at ibang mga kapaki-pakinabang na bagay.. kahit wala kang pera sige lang, humayo ka't bumili sa value shop.. basta't alam mo ang employee number mo, mairaraos mo ang iyong pangangailangan.. idedebit na lang nila sa payroll mo.. hehe..

napakalaking tulong sa akin ng value shop.. hehe.. especially when i need my daily sugar fix.. hehe.. daming chocolates dito.. yum..

mas mahal lang sya ng piso or dos kesa sa mga grocecies.. pwede na..





6. ang interlink..
mamimiss ko ding magpadown-up ng mga servers.. mamiss kong magacquire ng mga terminal sa iba't ibang region na available para sa development.. at ang pinakamamimiss ko??? ang pagpindot ng paulit paulit sa enter key na matatagpuan sa numpad.. hehe.. :)





7. ang "itd good morning.. this is kat.."
hay.. alam nyo minsan hanggang sa bahay, lalo na pag bagong gising ako, nasasabi ko to.. tinatawanan ako ng mga barkada ko pag tumatawag sila sa office.. gustong gusto nila kong binusbuska tungkol dito.. wala akong magawa!! SOP kasi.. i report pa ko sa CRC..

mamimiss ko din ang pagsabi ni jhaz lagi ng "uy.. ang ganda talaga ng boses.." hehe..





8. ang aming bagong uniform..
mamiss ko sya di lang dahil sa 1 month ko lang sya naisuot, kundi dahil sa kulay pink sya.. hehe.. in fairness, mas maganda ung style ngaun kesa dun sa past uniform namin.. me burberry effect pa.. hehe..

oo.. sa isang taon na pagtatrabaho ko dito nakadalawang palit na ko ng uniform.. ^-^





9. ang aming biometrics machine..
me dalawang biometrics machine sa lobby namin.. at dito kami nagtitime-in at time-out.. at minsan pag sinuswerte ka sa umaga at late ka na, ung isang biometrics e late ng 30 minutes ang oras.. minsan naman 10 years na e di pa din nya nareread ung barcode sa id mo..

barcode?? tapos biometrics machine?? dati daw kasi fingerprint scan ang gamit dyan.. e meron ata mga empleyado dito na kasing bigat ng adobe ang thumb kaya nasisira.. nagsasawa na silang magpalit kaya barcode nalang.. parang grocery baga.. hehe..

minsan pa ang pangalan na nag-aapear sa yo e, "user does not exists".. normal na un.. pero ako naging pangalan ko na ang "reynaldo bitbit jr.".. sino kaya to??





10. syempre pa.. mga office mates ko..

@@ the team mates @@
si miss jill, ang aking mother chicken, ang aking project leader.. si sir vernon, ang aming stand-up comedian, the kuya.. si miss rhazzle, kachikahan ko tungkol sa gadgets, sa damit at sa kung anu ano pang kakikayan.. si sir joe, ang aking proxy server at taga download ng episodes ng bleach, naruto, FMA at tsubasa chronicles.. si claire, the musician, laging malas pag thursday, nagbabalak kaming itatag ang KUPAL'S PRODUCTION.. hehe.. si johnvi, ang kanyang honey ang supplier ng aming tumbler, ang galing nya sa find her differences parang di sya nakasalamin.. si lance, sabit lang to (hehe..), kasama sa panonood ng movies at ng gigs ng love kong si diego.. si miss raqs, kikay din ito.. at ang BIG BROTHER, si sir jim, ang aming project officer.. hehe.. co-alumnus ko ito!!


@mga hindi ko teammates@
si cindy, kasabay ko nag-start, sya na ang senior sa team nla(hanep!!).. si fred, ang payroll master, kasama ko ding manood ng movies, kasama din sa OT.. si cherry, na may maliit na boses at naadik sa mars.. si jhaz, singer ito, ang love ni james at ang kumokontra sa lahat ng kalokohan ko.. hehe..


madami pa sila.. kung iisa-isahin ko sila e aabutin tayo ng mahabang panahon.. hehe.. miss congeniality yata ito.. hehe..






yes, i'll be leaving all these things behind.. mamimiss ko talaga lahat ng mga ito.. lahat ng mga bagay at tao na naging bahagi ng buhay ko dito.. special to para sakin.. first job kasi e.. pero i need to let them all go.. so that i can search for the things that could complete me and satisfy me more.. so that i can also grow.. ^-^

it's like saying goodbye and hello at the same time..

..to my favorite mistake..

you were

as always

like the moon for me

as i sit by the window

late at night

looking at the stars

you're so mesmerising

so bright

so out of reach

and i

forever plotting how to reach you

no matter how many times

i try

still

i am always crashing down to the sea

doomed forever to drown

helplessly

swimming and swimming

there was a time

when i thought i had reached you

i thought

i had finally grasped you

a globe of light within my hand

was it only a dream?

an illusion?

it felt so real

so right

and now

once more you appear

tempting me with your brilliant shine

beneath the dark sky

should i ride my rocketship

to try to reach you again?

should i burn it down

and forever not look at the sky?

what?

they did asked me to give 2 former supervisors as references.. well, anong magagawa ko first job ko to so walang former.. it is out of the running.. hehe.. so, i gave them infos about my senior project officer and my project leader, thinking "nah, they wouldn't call them.."

but they did..

ang taray, senior project officer ko pa ang tinawagan..

imagine my shock when i entered emerson's office (the call was for a final interview) and the hr officer handling my file said "katrina, sira ka talaga ba't mo binigay number ng boss mo?? tinawagan ko siya kagabi!!"

i know then that my current job is history and they needed to damn well hire me..

buti na lang, job offer na pala un.. hehe.. swerte..

ang problema na lang e ung pagpasok ko kinabukasan at kung paano ko makakalabas ng buhay sa office ng boss ko.. hehe..

thank goodness, my boss took it mildly and good-naturedly..

he was driving when emerson called.. naisip daw niya ang lakas naman daw ng loob ko at siya ung binigay kong reference.. :)

sinabi lang daw nya kung ano ung totoo.. at syempre makakaligtas ba ang... what else? syempre ung tardiness ko.. hehe..

so even before i started my job at emerson, i've been told that my attendance, rather my punctuality, will be well-monitored.. harhar..

well, so many changes are happening at my life right now.. and i'm looking forward to all of it..

just bring it on.. at least di boring ang buhay ko.. hehe..

'til next..

what a monday..

the day started with a team meeting.. and as what our SPO emphasized so dearly, was the first team meeting of the year.. hehe..

well, as expected if you have teammates as goofy as mine, we were all making fun of each other and spent half the day laughing.. and eating MOCCA mamon.. yum!!! ^-^


and then came MERIENDA..

it's been one hell of a summer for me..

and being offered a chance to go to the US of A is a good thing to cap things off..

it started by being called for an interview by a company where i have passed my resume almost 3 months ago..

the interview did moderately well but i didn't get my hopes up because they needed people with 2 years or more experience(ding!).. and they only needed 2.. by the way, TEN people were interviewed that day(dingdong!!)..

after 2 days, i received a text message from them asking my email address for instructions for further exams..

WHAT!!! exams??!! ano ba ito?!! kailangan ko bang dumaan sa butas ng karayom dito??!! nevertheless, i gave them my email address.. malay mo makapasa..

the email consists of instructions asking me for dates so they can schedule my psychological and IELTS exam.. and they are asking me for 5 character references (2 of which should be my FORMER supervisors)..

hey hey hey.. the psychological exam shouldn't be that hard.. i am very sure (though some friends thought otherwise) that i am not psycho-delusional.. i am sane, HONEST!!!

IELTS?!! hah! it should be easy for a bookworm like me.. by the way, i am hoarding IELTS review tapes and materials.. if you happen to have one, please lend it to me or ELSE!! i am also looking for films with the characters speaking with a british accent.. feel free to text me if you have one.. I'M DESPERATE!!

as for the character references, i have done it with a little help from friends.. i gave them infos about 2 friends, 1 former college professor and yes, my 2 immediate supervisor.. i haven't RESIGNED yet and this is my first job.. so where in the world will i get FORMER supervisors?? i am crossing my fingers that i am not anywhere near the area when my supervisors are being asked about my work performance by the HR of another company!! hehe..

there!! i just have to wait for a week to know my exam results (i'll be taking the psychological exam this friday and the IELTS exam the next day).. i hope i'll be posting good news by then..

by the way, an angel of a friend who is working in the said company told me i'm already in.. but until i am actually holding the employment contract with my hands, my ears are shut, my eyes are closed and my lips are murmuring prayers..

ciao!!