much has been said
said you never leave
why'd it have to be
harder than it had to be
don't you throw blame
you were part of this
wasn't suppose to end
with us just walking away

so many times we tried
holding on to the pain but in my baby's eyes
i see my shame
asking why you had to leave
wasn't i strong enough to make you see
that the biggest part of this it's not about you or me
but just be wrong if we held on

so maybe tomorrow we'll find
a taste for the old days hard lessons
we've left behind
this mirrors an open door
i can barely stand to see myself
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm crying out for help

ohh lord
ohh lord

much has been said
will i never learn
keeping my fingers crossed
praying for my luck to turn
but i can't complain
i'm living it easy
job's keeping me busy
going crazy

can't describe the way it felt
when you left said your goodbyes
it just seems crazy for me to think
that I'll find love a second time
but we all know how it all wraps up in the end

maybe tomorrow we'll find
a taste for the old days hard lessons
we've left behind
this mirrors an open door
i can barely stand to see myself
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm crying out for help

ohh lord
ohh lord

what am i leaving behind
sweet how we see the big picture when you're life's not on the line i

i know the way but do you see what i see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
money on the table thought that was all I had to do
never came home
never said a word to tell you
no one ever said it was going easy

easy

yeah

start over again
this time
this time
let's do it right

start over again
this time
this time
Lets keep the fires burning.

start over again
start over again
this time
this time
let's do it right sweet child

start over again
start over again
this time
this time
lets keep the fires burning

you say i only hear what i want to:
you say i talk so all the time
i talk so all the time

~oOo~

in random order.. hehe..


1. ang paglulunch ng 11:30 - 1:30..
o di ba ang sarap??? 2 hours ang lunch break.. hehe.. if you're a fast eater, 30 minutes eating time and 1 hour and 30 minutes na sleeping time.. considerate ang mga tao dito.. lights out talaga during these hours.. ^-^

para naman sa mga di natutulog na tulad ko, ang 1 and a half hours ay sapat na para manood ng movie o kya'y downloaded episode ng naruto at bleach.. sapat na din ito para mahumaling sa mga online games na family feud at maghanap ng pagkakaiba sa mga larawan sa www.findherdifferences.com/lingerie-and-bikini-edition na hard mode.. ehem ehem.. (paunawa: ang laro sa nasabing site ay nakapagdudulot ng konting pagkatulala at pagtulo ng laway sa mga kalalakihan..)


disclaimer:
12:00 - 1:30 talaga ang lunch break.. kaya lang dahil ang mga taga IT ay ayaw ng mahahabang pila, maaga silang umaakyat sa canteen para makaiwas rito.. normal routine na po ito.. hehe.. ;p





2. ang masasarap na cake sa canteen..
masarap talaga ang cake dito promise.. hehe.. this coming from a dessert enthusiast as myself is enough a praise.. hehe.. dinadayo ang mga cakes na gawa ng catering service namin..


for inquiries please call... hmmm.. nakalimutan ko local nila.. next time na lang.. hehe..





3. internet banking..
mamimiss ko ung mga dialog na "uy! me piso ka?? patransfer naman sa account ko o.. 199 na lang pera ko e.. para mawithdraw ko.."

o kaya ung "claire!! di ako makalog-in sa connect.. host unavailable!!"

mamimiss ko ang mga ito dahil kapag hindi na payroll ang account ko required na akong magmaintain ng balance na hindi bababa sa 5K.. biruin mo un.. pero sabi ni jambi 2k na lang daw ang maintaining balance.. pag ganun nga, pwedeng hindi ko ito mamiss.. hehe.. ung pagsigaw na lang kay claire ang mamimiss ko.. di bale.. alam ko naman local nya e.. hehe.. :)




4. merienda time
oo na.. puro pagkain ang mamimiss ko.. hehe.. mamimiss ko ang merienda time tuwing alas 4.. hehe.. mahilig kasing kumain ang mga teammates ko.. naendoctrinate tuloy ako hehe.. sana sa lilipatan ko me ganito din.. *hay* mamimiss ko ang kamote fries at barbecue ni manang sa backdoor, ang dirty ice cream na pinalaman sa monay sa me pacific star, ang mini stop at 7-11, ang mga fastfood stores sa palibot namin, at ang mani, fishball, squidball, kikiam at sweetcorn sa me hsbc.. and last but not the least ang mga junk foods at pastries sa value shop (for more info, see no.5).





5. ang value shop..
ano ba ang value shop?? ang value shop ay parang maliit na grocery na matatagpuan sa basement 2 ng building namin.. dito mo mabibili ang mga kailangan mo para makasurvive ka sa iyong araw-araw na gawain sa opisina tulad ng tissue, alcohol, ensaymada, chicken nuggets, 1.5 liters na coke, marshmallows, pillows, mr. chips at ibang mga kapaki-pakinabang na bagay.. kahit wala kang pera sige lang, humayo ka't bumili sa value shop.. basta't alam mo ang employee number mo, mairaraos mo ang iyong pangangailangan.. idedebit na lang nila sa payroll mo.. hehe..

napakalaking tulong sa akin ng value shop.. hehe.. especially when i need my daily sugar fix.. hehe.. daming chocolates dito.. yum..

mas mahal lang sya ng piso or dos kesa sa mga grocecies.. pwede na..





6. ang interlink..
mamimiss ko ding magpadown-up ng mga servers.. mamiss kong magacquire ng mga terminal sa iba't ibang region na available para sa development.. at ang pinakamamimiss ko??? ang pagpindot ng paulit paulit sa enter key na matatagpuan sa numpad.. hehe.. :)





7. ang "itd good morning.. this is kat.."
hay.. alam nyo minsan hanggang sa bahay, lalo na pag bagong gising ako, nasasabi ko to.. tinatawanan ako ng mga barkada ko pag tumatawag sila sa office.. gustong gusto nila kong binusbuska tungkol dito.. wala akong magawa!! SOP kasi.. i report pa ko sa CRC..

mamimiss ko din ang pagsabi ni jhaz lagi ng "uy.. ang ganda talaga ng boses.." hehe..





8. ang aming bagong uniform..
mamiss ko sya di lang dahil sa 1 month ko lang sya naisuot, kundi dahil sa kulay pink sya.. hehe.. in fairness, mas maganda ung style ngaun kesa dun sa past uniform namin.. me burberry effect pa.. hehe..

oo.. sa isang taon na pagtatrabaho ko dito nakadalawang palit na ko ng uniform.. ^-^





9. ang aming biometrics machine..
me dalawang biometrics machine sa lobby namin.. at dito kami nagtitime-in at time-out.. at minsan pag sinuswerte ka sa umaga at late ka na, ung isang biometrics e late ng 30 minutes ang oras.. minsan naman 10 years na e di pa din nya nareread ung barcode sa id mo..

barcode?? tapos biometrics machine?? dati daw kasi fingerprint scan ang gamit dyan.. e meron ata mga empleyado dito na kasing bigat ng adobe ang thumb kaya nasisira.. nagsasawa na silang magpalit kaya barcode nalang.. parang grocery baga.. hehe..

minsan pa ang pangalan na nag-aapear sa yo e, "user does not exists".. normal na un.. pero ako naging pangalan ko na ang "reynaldo bitbit jr.".. sino kaya to??





10. syempre pa.. mga office mates ko..

@@ the team mates @@
si miss jill, ang aking mother chicken, ang aking project leader.. si sir vernon, ang aming stand-up comedian, the kuya.. si miss rhazzle, kachikahan ko tungkol sa gadgets, sa damit at sa kung anu ano pang kakikayan.. si sir joe, ang aking proxy server at taga download ng episodes ng bleach, naruto, FMA at tsubasa chronicles.. si claire, the musician, laging malas pag thursday, nagbabalak kaming itatag ang KUPAL'S PRODUCTION.. hehe.. si johnvi, ang kanyang honey ang supplier ng aming tumbler, ang galing nya sa find her differences parang di sya nakasalamin.. si lance, sabit lang to (hehe..), kasama sa panonood ng movies at ng gigs ng love kong si diego.. si miss raqs, kikay din ito.. at ang BIG BROTHER, si sir jim, ang aming project officer.. hehe.. co-alumnus ko ito!!


@mga hindi ko teammates@
si cindy, kasabay ko nag-start, sya na ang senior sa team nla(hanep!!).. si fred, ang payroll master, kasama ko ding manood ng movies, kasama din sa OT.. si cherry, na may maliit na boses at naadik sa mars.. si jhaz, singer ito, ang love ni james at ang kumokontra sa lahat ng kalokohan ko.. hehe..


madami pa sila.. kung iisa-isahin ko sila e aabutin tayo ng mahabang panahon.. hehe.. miss congeniality yata ito.. hehe..






yes, i'll be leaving all these things behind.. mamimiss ko talaga lahat ng mga ito.. lahat ng mga bagay at tao na naging bahagi ng buhay ko dito.. special to para sakin.. first job kasi e.. pero i need to let them all go.. so that i can search for the things that could complete me and satisfy me more.. so that i can also grow.. ^-^

it's like saying goodbye and hello at the same time..

..to my favorite mistake..

you were

as always

like the moon for me

as i sit by the window

late at night

looking at the stars

you're so mesmerising

so bright

so out of reach

and i

forever plotting how to reach you

no matter how many times

i try

still

i am always crashing down to the sea

doomed forever to drown

helplessly

swimming and swimming

there was a time

when i thought i had reached you

i thought

i had finally grasped you

a globe of light within my hand

was it only a dream?

an illusion?

it felt so real

so right

and now

once more you appear

tempting me with your brilliant shine

beneath the dark sky

should i ride my rocketship

to try to reach you again?

should i burn it down

and forever not look at the sky?

what?

they did asked me to give 2 former supervisors as references.. well, anong magagawa ko first job ko to so walang former.. it is out of the running.. hehe.. so, i gave them infos about my senior project officer and my project leader, thinking "nah, they wouldn't call them.."

but they did..

ang taray, senior project officer ko pa ang tinawagan..

imagine my shock when i entered emerson's office (the call was for a final interview) and the hr officer handling my file said "katrina, sira ka talaga ba't mo binigay number ng boss mo?? tinawagan ko siya kagabi!!"

i know then that my current job is history and they needed to damn well hire me..

buti na lang, job offer na pala un.. hehe.. swerte..

ang problema na lang e ung pagpasok ko kinabukasan at kung paano ko makakalabas ng buhay sa office ng boss ko.. hehe..

thank goodness, my boss took it mildly and good-naturedly..

he was driving when emerson called.. naisip daw niya ang lakas naman daw ng loob ko at siya ung binigay kong reference.. :)

sinabi lang daw nya kung ano ung totoo.. at syempre makakaligtas ba ang... what else? syempre ung tardiness ko.. hehe..

so even before i started my job at emerson, i've been told that my attendance, rather my punctuality, will be well-monitored.. harhar..

well, so many changes are happening at my life right now.. and i'm looking forward to all of it..

just bring it on.. at least di boring ang buhay ko.. hehe..

'til next..